Well this weekend has been a very nice weekend. I hope that everyone has had as much fun as me. Jackson what you did on Friday night was the highlight of my life! I was so grateful that we took advantage of our private time together. We went to MacDonalds for a Sundae and you so graciously spent your allowance to take me out. It was late and we were alone which never happens and you suggested that we go out and have an ice cream and I was hesitant as always and I am just so glad you convinced me to go because it was the best time I have had in such a long time and just being with you and having some one on one time meant so much to me.

Then Saturday we got to go and have breakfast with Santa and Grandma and Papa and the Sweeney's which we have done the last 2 Christmas's and Mommy really enjoys that day it is really special to me because we get to catch up and just sit and enjoy eachother's company and we always go as a family which is the icing on the cake! Now is the time that I really start to miss my family. I find it hard to be away from Auntie Buffy especially and her boys because I know we would have so much fun all together if we ever had the chance but because of certain circumstances that will never happen. We will however The bender's mean alot to us. You and Emily started it all in the Burlington Childeren's Centre when you had such a hard time when Mommy had to leave you and little sweet Emily would come over to you and hold you until you stopped crying and little did we all know that Kim was in the hallway hugging Mommy so that she would stop crying! That is where it all began and we have been friends ever since. Daddy and Duane are best friends and Meaghan and Griffin are best friends and you and Emily are best friend and so are Kim and I. Kim has been there for Mommy at every surgery and as many Dr.\s appointments since I was diagnosed with Cancer and I just couldn't have gone through these last few years without her.

you and Emily have such an amazing relationship. It is so mature for your age but it's like you just understand eachother so well without any questions. You are there for eachother when you need and you just click. It is so nice for us because I feel that Emily has paved the way for you so that you will never go below her standard because she is what you have known she has taught you true love, true friendship, unconditional love, and understanding, guenuine care and laughter. So now you will be attracted to people who only have those qualities because it's all you know. It is so special and the greatest thing about it is that you both appriciate eachother for all the things you bring to the relationship. and for your age that is just amazing. All we can hope for is your friendship will always stay the same and although there will be akward times you will alwyas be ther for one another. Pretty cool.

This Christmas is so special to all of us as I mentioned before this is the first year in 3 years that I won't be just coming home from the hospital or just recovering from surgery or gettting ready to go in for another surgery. i am looking forward to it just being the 4 of us no offence to Grandma and Papa who usually come and have dinner with us and have for the last 8 years but soemtimes it is nice to just be the 4 of us and because this year is so special it means alot to me to all be together alone just haning out in our jammies and playing with all out new toys and games that we have gottten from Santa and friends and family.

Mommy is starting to get stronger. Each day is getting brighter and brighter. I am trying so hard to push through and not let these horrible health issues hold me back anymore and I want you to know that if it weren't for you both I wouldn't have the strength and the willingness to do it. You get me up in the morning and make me enjoy life. That is a big resposibility and I hope you dont' mind the burden that is put upon you because the last thing I want to do is put you under so much stress. It is just you both so naturally make me want to be better. A better Mom to you both, a better friend so I can be a good role model for you, and a better person so that you will always be proud of me and be proud to have me for a Mom.

Merry Christmas Jackson and Griffin thanks for all you do for me and all the times we have had together thus far. I look forward to many more times togother as a family and many more christmas's each one to bring us new and exciting things....