In honor of you my little buddy I decided to use your favoroite color of your innocent age of 6. I look at every holiday since having Cancer as a milestone. Every holiday ever Birthday I am here is a miricle and I just want you to know that this one held a special meaning for all of us as well. This was the first time in 3 of your innocent birthday's that I haven't either been in the hospital, going into surgery, or coming out of surgery. I remember for your 4th birthday I felt so terrible for you how could you possibly understand at your tender age why Mommy wans't going to be with you for your special day? I jus thought you would never forgive me or you would be so confused and scared without Mommy or Dady by your side....
Thanks to my best friend and Jackson's God Mother and your Mother Auntie Karen flew all the way out here from Vernon B.C. so that she could be here for you to comfort you when you cried for me and when you asked that queston that we all knew that you would ask "where is my Mommy?" She wanted to be here to answer that question and hold you while you cried and she had to tell you that Mommy was having another surgery and she would be home as soon as she could get home but she was thinking about you and is there for you in your heart all day.... You did what we all thought you cried... and you looked up at Auntie Karen and said " I am scared but I will be brave.." Now from what I understand it took all the strength your Auntie Karen had not to just take you in her arms and hold you until it was all over. But she did what she came here to do and she hugged you and told you it would be ok and she asked if you wanted to go to MacDonald's with Aunt Nessy and your best friend Tyler and of cource your answer was yahooo!
You are the bravest soul I have met Griffin you ask the right questions and demand the true answers, you know the punchline of the joke before anyone else knows the answer and you laugh from your toes like no one I have ever met. Now I want you to know that everyone loves their babies like I do but you and I have always had a special relationship. Different than Jackson and I not better just different. I feel very blessed to have 2 amazing relationships with my 2 amazing boys. You and I are so alike that we butt heads but we love to laugh and we love to love. You bring me up to a boil and bring me down as fast as I was boiling. You have the most beautiful deep blue eyes that dig right to my heart and soften my heart any time I look into them. You are so bright and artistic that you will live such an amazing full fullfillling life that I can't wait to follow along beside you and watch you jump off bridges and do all kinds of scary things, that you seek out to scare your Mother to life. You are a thrill seeker and the thrills will find you and Daddy and I will be brave and try to let you go and experience the life you want to life but please try to stop growing so fast. Everytime I turn around you get bigger and wiser and make me so proud and I look at you and your brother and I know that my life's dream has come true and without you my life would be nothing of what it is today.
So Griffin Keaney the tender age of 6 you have taught me so much about life and what life is about and that you have to live life freely and with as much fun as possible. I will always love you and no matter what we will face life head on and I will continue to look into those big blue eyes and tell you the truth and alwyas fight to be there to watch you become a man but not to fast as I am enjoying the ride we ride everyday we are blessed to have you in our lives. Oh the love, joy, and life you have brought to this family Griffin Thomas may the legasy be yours tolive and ours to watch from the sideline's..
Love Mommy Jan 8th 2009
